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Its never looked so good! I have been home for about a week now and I am loving it. Even though I dont do much more than watch TV, our TV is alot better than the one in the hospital. I havent been feeling very well, very tired, no energy, no appetite. I was at the doc today for a re-check and Dr Forman told me that that is completely normal. He also said my counts were all very high which he was very proud of. He said it takes about 2 days for every one day I was in bed. So I cant get frustrated I just need to let my body recover. I am anxious though. I really want to get back to normal activity, especially surfing!
Thank you all so much for all your thoughts and prayers, I think they worked!! I love you all.

xoxo
Jenna

homeward bound

Today is the day. Its 9:30am and I am patiently waiting for the doctor to come and discharge me. I also am getting the hickmann catheter taken out of my chest today, what a relief, i have had it for more the 5 months. I probably wont be out of here until this afternoon but thats ok. I am feeling ok today. still a bit queasy, they switched all my antibiotics to pill form and they are kind of harsh on your belly especially since i have no food in there. i still have no appetite but im hoping my moms home cookin will snap me out of it.
my doctor isnt sure yet if i will need radiation, i will have scans in about a month and then doctor forman will re-evaluate my case and since i responded so well to the first transplant, i might NOT need radiaiton. that would be so amazing. that would mean that this is my last treatment, ever!! but ill have to cross that bridge when i come to it. the thing about having cancer (or just being sick) is that you really have to take it day by day, you cant get too far ahead of yourself because then you can be let down if it doesnt work out your way. so i am going to take this month off, get my strength back, hopefully visit with all of those who read my blog :) and really concentrate on growing some hair, haha.
i love you all, see you soon!!
carpe diem

coming home!

Well my WBC are way high, about 5000. I still havent eaten any real food, a few bites of crackers and cereal but nothing substantial. Nonetheless, Dr Forman is releasing me on friday!! as in this friday!! i am so happy. these last few days have been so long, i just really want to go home. i am feeling ok, today i walked outside for the first time in a long time, it was nice. even though i had to basically wear a gas mask, it was still nice to feel the sun on my skin and get a breath of cool, fresh air. i am starting to go crazy just sitting here so it was nice to be outside. i got so many cards today for valentines day, thakn you!!! i hope all of you are having a romantic lovely valenties day. maybe next year ill have a real date, haha, and some real hair.
i love you all and i will see you soon, so soon!!!
xoxo

WBC 1000

YAY!!! My wbc counts were at 1000 today, so good! i have to have counts of 1500, eat regular food, and get rid of various infections that call for antibiotics before i can go home. so were looking towards the end of the week for my big release. i am so anxious. i had a popsicle about a half an hour ago and it has stayed down so far...so far...the soup from my previous post didnt work out so well. so ive waited a few days and trying the popsicle today.
ill write tomorrow, update and begin the official countdown to get me OUT OF HERE!!!!! AHHHHHH

xoxo

DAY +8

Ok, this is getting old. Real old. Still zero, zero!! Hopefully tomorrow or monday the counts will come back up. I want to go home like nobodys business. this second half has definately been worse than the first half in december. but i am going to try to eat some soup today (the first thing ive will be eating in about 11 days). we'll see how it goes...if i eat for a few days then they will take me off the yellow bag of nutrition that drips into m veins and i will be one step closer to getting the heck out of here. im sorry my posts have been so repetitive, but thats life in the hospital, repeat repeat repeat.
i got such a huge mail call the other day!!! thank you all so much who sent cards to me up here, i was soooo exicted.
my favorite piece of mail was from my little cousin Nate Newburn describing what he thought about me, he is so sweet. i love little kids, they are so genuine and caring.
anyways, thats all for today...ill write more later....

love and kisses....

ps i still need a valentine...any takers? (you have to like bald girls)

DAY +6

Neupagen neupogen neupogen. damn neupogen. my counts are still zero. they probably wont come up until monday so i guess that means that im not going to get to come home monday. im going insane in here!! AHHHH!!!! think good thoughts...

carpe diem

DAY +4

Its early morning here at COH, Dr. Forman just came in to check up on me. He always comes in so early! I had a terrible night's sleep, i think i am becoming immune to the ativan they give me, because i didnt sleep a wink last night. My counts are still at zero, which is expected. He said the soonest i could be out ofhere will be next monday, the 12th. so that is what im shooting for. ill start getting nuepogen injections tomorrow which help boost the wbc count quickly, so you never know, i could be going home this week...haha. i have been feeling really good so far today and all day yesterday, which is great. i also have no mouth sores, well very very minor mouth "irrataions" as i like to call them. all in all it has been a smooth ride, a few bumps but now is basically just a waiting game to see when those counts come up. ill keep you "posted"

xoxo
jenna

WBC 0

MY WBC count is 0, as expected. So it will take about 10 days for it to come back up. So that means that i have 10 more days. or so, of agonizing boredom and un-comfortableness in coh. im not feeling too great right now, so ill try to post again later. but just know that everything is going as planned and we are on schedule...
xoxo

DAY ZERO

I got my stem cells back today! Three whole bags full! On Wednesday I had my last day of chemo (ever) and I must say, it was tough. The roughest drug Ive had so far. I was so so so sick all day wed/thurs. Man oh man was I sick. Geting my stem cells back was another ordeal in itself. I had an adverse reaction, ie i was vomiting, shaking, cramping, all kinds of fun stuff. They said it was normal, that I shouldnt worry. I was just annoyed. I want to feel better!! I have been asleep most all the days, so thats why there is a lack of posts. I will try to post more, of if im asleep, ill have my mom or dad do it,

love you all and miss you!!

xoxo